It’s stirring, a feeling so familiar
I dread it, I welcome it.
Warring between finding peace
And resisting the waves.
It punishes me yet again
Testing my limits, breaking me raw;
It’s roaring, the demons so familiar
I cower from it, I crave it.
It’s tar – black and flaming
Rising up my throat.
I’m a blazing furnace,
Burning through my bone and flesh
I’m a wilting rose,
Thorns sprouting out from my pores;
It’s suffocating, the dark so familiar
I despise it, I embrace it.
In a cave with an open door
I can see the light
Yet black masks my vision.
I want to move
But ghosts shackle me in.
I want to call out
Alas, shame clogs my cries;
It’s tiring, the helplessness so familiar
I curse it, I bask in it
As I lay in the cave frozen and stiff
I watch the world outside
Marveling at how time flies,
Wondering if there is an end to it
While I wait for my voice to be heard
While I wait for the demons to spur.
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